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The Sam whump kicked season 12 off right. The lackluster reunion with Dean? We were robbed. Here are some favorite fics of mine that address Sam's torture and rape at the hands of Toni Bevell, and all the well-deserved comfort he should've gotten in canon from Dean and to lesser degrees, Mary and/or Cas
This reclist is something of a subcategory to my rape recovery reclist - feel free to check that out if you liked these

Let 's get started! 🤗 ❤️

Category: Gen
We are infinite by titivillus. Gen, Rated K+, 13k
. Summary: Dean had been down this road so many times, he could write a book about it: "The Complete Illustrated Guide to Nursing Your Little Brother Back to Health After He's Been Tortured." Season 12x02. Hurt!Sam. Caring/Protective!Dean.
https://www.fanfiction.net/s/12175545/1/We-Are-Infinite
My thoughts: oh boy, my favorite part was Sam just breaking down in dean's arms. Fantastic descriptions of pain and the kind of relieved, healing affection Dean's capable of giving. Also Dean picking Sam up and carrying him like a baby YAAASSSSS!!!

Category: Dean/Sam
The Worst Part by ithinktoomuch4438. Rated NC-17, Dean/Sam, 2k words.
Summary: Come was still drying in his jeans.That was the worst part.
ao3.org/works/8355985

my thoughts: Toni Bevell drugged Sam into hallucinatory sex (which resulted in real ejaculation) to have him spill secrets during their pillow talk after. Super fucked up. Oh my heart. Sam's wounds were healed so quickly but the trauma remains. The author did an incredible job describing Sam keeping it together until finally the bedroom scene where Dean and him can finally talk and Sam can cry and Dean can give him hugs and kisses and affirmations that it wasn't his fault. 😭😭😭🥰🥰🥰

Almost rosy by shiftylinguini. Teen+, Sam/Dean, 5k words. Summary: Dean used to do this for Sam, when he was small and Dad was gone. When no one else was there. When their mom was in the ground instead of down the hall, and Sam had Dean and Dean had―memories, of someone doing this for him. Maybe. It's all shaky before the fire. Maybe he just made that bit up.Or, in the aftermath of Mary coming back, Dean takes stock of how they're doing.
ao3.org/works/33172111
My thoughts: Oh my gosh I really loved this. Fantastic prose from Dean's perspective - that awesome play between comedic and worried/loving - and then the way the author described how they were together as Dean washed Sam's hair 😭😭😭 honestly, so so good.

Category: Wincestiel
to treat a soul with grace and love. Mature, queerplatonic wincestiel, 6k words.
Summary: Team Free Will Bang 2021!S12 canon divergence. Dean carried a cosmic suicide bomb into a meeting with God and his sister, Amara. Cas was thrown clear across the state by a powerful banishing sigil, and Sam got shot and kidnapped and tortured, all while thinking his brother was dead.And Mary Winchester was resurrected.
https://archiveofourown.org/works/33972577
my thoughts on me: I love my own shower scene in this one